Well, it's been a really long time since I've made a post. Just haven't really felt like blogging lately. Now that I'm back at Yavapai it's time for some changes. Denny and I have been starting to workout. It's really nice to have someone there to push you and support you while you try to better yourself. Monday we do our assessments and we get to see what we're working with. My ultimate goal and even though it's a high goal and I know that I won't succeed in this goal this year, but this time next year I want to be at least 90 lbs lighter. I will feel so much better and have a lot more energy then I do now. I hope the same goes for Denny, he would be so much happier and he would be able to do a lot more than he does now. It excites me to think about what we will look like when we lose that much weight.
In other news, a new day, a new semester. The fall 2010 semester has started and it's going to be a great one. I have some great friends and I love hanging out with them. Sometimes though, my depression sinks in and I start having these stupid thoughts. I'd wish they would just go away. Sometimes I just feel so alone. Like I have no one. Yeah I have Denny and I thank God for him every day, but I can't shake this feeling. Like I don't belong anywhere. I hate feeling like this, but I'm always paranoid that no one likes me. I just don't fit in. Ok another topic.
In April, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It means that I have multiple cysts on my ovaries which is caused by a hormonal imbalance. Which explains a lot. Weight gain, irregular periods and increased hair growth are the main symptoms of PCOS. I had an ultrasound which confirmed that I have it. My doctor put me on Ortho-Novum 1/35 which is given to women often to treat PCOS. He also told me that I will probably have a hard time getting pregnant when Denny and I want to start having kids, because PCOS is the main cause of infertility. That came as a disappointment to me. I've always wanted children. I guess you could say it's one of my goals in life, to become a mother. It would really devastate me if I'm not able to have them.
Well, I'm going to sleep now. It's pretty late. Hopefully I'll keep up this blog with how I'm doing on my workouts and stuff like that. Good night world.
~Robin
